I’m not sure

where I’m going

but it will be

beautiful 

and I will 

feel

again

I will 

be happy 

again

explore

laugh

stretch 

again —

I will 

heal

and I will 

hurt 

but I won’t 

get stuck 

for too long

because this life

is for living 

and it is my life

and I cannot 

live this life 

for anyone else

but me

because these bones

don’t rest 

on someone else’s frame

just my own —

so someday 

I will 

capital L-o-v-e

but first 

I need

to understand 

what love

means to me

and feed myself 

first.