Because maybe
the thing that is fundamentally wrong with me
is something that I cannot see
but hey, you know I gotta lean in
to figure out who I’m supposed to be
while everyone enjoys picking me apart
and even the qualities I like about myself
are somehow detrimental to my health

What about that big beautiful mind?
it always seems to get me in a bind
because how are you supposed to
grow and progress
when you slap a smile on depressed
they say it’s a chemical imbalance

Can’t seem to find the right cocktail
of medications, exercise
I really just want to emphasize
that I don’t want my feelings
to put anyone out
I thought I had the answers
but I don’t
I was just protecting myself
from growth.